Chapter 208
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Lou Yan hurried back to the room, took a quick shower, and then laid on the bed tossing and turning for half an hour, unable to fall asleep no matter what.
Finally, just as he was drifting off to sleep, he suddenly heard Fu Xuezhou’s voice.
“Lou Yan.”
Lou Yan was immediately awakened from drowsiness. He didn’t open his eyes but raised his hand to cover his eyes in the dark room, his whole demeanor restless and oppressive.
Lou Yan.
Lou Yan, Lou Yan.
Lou Yan Lou Yan Lou Yan.
“Stop being noisy!”
Lou Yan roared angrily, his chest heaving heavily.
The voice in his ear finally quieted down. Lou Yan’s lips straightened, forcing himself to go back to sleep.
For the next two days, Fu Xuezhou didn’t wake up. Strangely, Lou Yan didn’t visit him again either. Every day, he leisurely spent his time either reading or fishing, as if he wasn’t the one who had been eager to save Fu Xuezhou before.
On this day, Lou Yan was once again fishing on the deck.
Lu Haoxiu accompanied him for sea fishing, but the young man couldn’t stand sitting here for too long and ran back to his room to play games after less than two hours. Lou Yan casually held the fishing rod, and when the fishing line sank, indicating a fish had bitten, he pulled it up and put it in the bucket beside him before baiting the hook again. Duan Zege walked over from behind and sat on Lu Haoxiu’s stool, playing with Lu Haoxiu’s fishing rod. Lou Yan glanced at him and pushed the bait he had prepared toward him.
The two sat side by side like old friends, fishing with similar postures. Duan Zege asked with a smile, “Why haven’t you visited Fu Xuezhou these past two days?”
Lou Yan’s fishing motion paused for a moment, but he quickly and naturally cast the hook into the sea, saying indifferently, “What’s the point of me visiting him? Will he wake up immediately if I go see him?”
“Maybe he will,” Duan Zege lazily replied, “What happened the other night proves that he can hear sounds from the outside.”
Lou Yan stared at the sea without turning his head. “Then why don’t you guys shout at him a few times? With you and Li Sanxin taking care of him, he’ll wake up quickly anyway.”
Duan Zege didn’t speak for a moment. After a while, he asked directly, “Are you avoiding Fu Xuezhou?”
Lou Yan suddenly tightened his grip on the fishing rod.
He was indeed avoiding, not wanting to see Fu Xuezhou. Before saving Fu Xuezhou, Lou Yan had already come up with a plan to deal with him. He had also thought about Fu Xuezhou’s reaction, whether he would hate him more or treat him as an anomaly. But only, Lou Yan had never thought that Fu Xuezhou’s reaction would be like this.
Fu Xuezhou had chosen a third option between hating him and not loving him. He seemed… to still long for him.
Such feelings made Lou Yan subconsciously want to avoid, and his original plan for Fu Xuezhou was disrupted.
Duan Zege understood Lou Yan too well. Even if Lou Yan didn’t speak, he knew what Lou Yan was thinking. Lou Yan’s background in both worlds was the same, abandoned by his mother, estranged from his father. He knew that Lou Yan actually lacked love.
Lou Yan didn’t lack love from people, but what others felt for him was mixed with too many other things. There was pursuit of his appearance, love for his wealth. The free-spirited Lou Yan easily gained admiration from others, so he disdained love and never gave anyone a chance to get close to him.
But Fu Xuezhou was different. Fu Xuezhou’s feelings for Lou Yan had nothing to do with other additional conditions, and it was pure enough to make Lou Yan feel hot.
Duan Zege loved Lou Yan deeply, infinitely. He loved Lou Yan to the point that when he saw Lou Yan angry and distressed because of his parents’ divorce, he foolishly went home to persuade his own parents, who had lost feelings for each other, to divorce as well. Although he got beaten up, Duan Zege still happily went to comfort Lou Yan the next day, telling him that they were the same now.
Thinking of these things was funny, but Duan Zege understood that his love couldn’t fulfill all of Lou Yan’s needs for love.
Duan Zege sighed softly. “Fu Xuezhou has woken up.”
Lou Yan was stunned, his Adam’s apple rolling. “He woke up?”
“Yes, I came to tell you that he woke up,” Duan Zege said. “Li Sanxin is watching over him. After Fu Xuezhou woke up, he said two sentences. I think it’s necessary for me to tell you these two sentences.”
Fu Xuezhou had woken up half an hour ago.
After waking up, he remained silent, staring straight at the ceiling, which made Li Sanxin not notice immediately. When Li Sanxin finally noticed that he had woken up, he stood up abruptly and said, “You’re awake?!”
Fu Xuezhou turned his head to look at Li Sanxin and asked the first question, “Is this an illusion?”
Li Sanxin said it wasn’t, so Fu Xuezhou fell silent again for twenty minutes before asking the second question, “Where’s Lou Yan?”
After Duan Zege finished speaking, the fishing rod moved slightly. He slowly reeled in the line and said, “Aren’t you going to see him?”
Lou Yan asked absentmindedly, “Where is he now?”
“He’s still in his room,” Duan Zege sighed again. Sometimes he felt really uncomfortable and headache-inducing witnessing the emotional entanglement between these two. Unable to help but advise a few more words, “Apart from those two sentences, he hasn’t said anything else. Li Sanxin asked him many questions, but he didn’t react at all, like a wooden puppet. Don’t you have something to ask him? It’s time to talk openly. What was the misunderstanding? What should you two do? You need to sit down and have a good talk.”
Lou Yan hesitated for a moment and shook his head slowly. “I don’t know how to approach him now… You go, ask him for me what he meant by ‘boredom will destroy the world.'”
Duan Zege couldn’t help but laugh and cry. “Are you serious?”
Lou Yan calmly said, “Go.”
Duan Zege got up helplessly and returned to Fu Xuezhou’s room with the task Lou Yan gave him. Less than five minutes later, he came out again, shrugged at Lou Yan, and said, “Fu Xuezhou said he’ll only tell you.”
Lou Yan finally got up and walked towards Fu Xuezhou’s room.
Fu Xuezhou’s room was a minute away from the deck, but Lou Yan walked exceptionally slowly. However, no matter how slow he was, he still arrived at Fu Xuezhou’s room door five minutes later.
Looking at the door in front of him, Lou Yan’s face showed a bit of annoyance and complexity. The scene of Fu Xuezhou murmuring his name unconsciously while in a coma once again appeared in his mind.
It then transformed into the agonizing expression on Fu Xuezhou’s face when he pushed him into the extreme cold h*ll.
Lou Yan couldn’t imagine what Fu Xuezhou’s current mood was like. He also didn’t know what his own mood would be like after seeing Fu Xuezhou awake. Strong self-esteem made Lou Yan hesitate to push open the door. Every time he thought that Fu Xuezhou was waiting inside, he had an impulse to turn around and leave.
Lou Yan closed his eyes, his hands in his pockets slowly clenched. He took a deep breath and suddenly pushed open the door expressionlessly, walking in.
The room wasn’t lit, but the sunlight shining in from the window was enough to make the entire bedroom bright.
Fu Xuezhou sat on the bed, covered in a light white blanket, quietly looking out the window with his head turned to the side.
After the experience in the extreme cold h*ll, his temperament became even colder and lonelier. His silver hair hung down on his face, his profile was pale, and his expression was indifferent.
There was no one else in the room except Fu Xuezhou. Lou Yan closed the door and walked from the door to about two meters away from the bed, his footsteps distinct.
But Fu Xuezhou didn’t turn around yet, still gazing at the sea outside the window. Occasionally, under the surging of the waves, water droplets splashed on the window, like vivid and lively paintings.
Both remained silent, the suppressed atmosphere slowly spreading in the air. After an unknown amount of time, Fu Xuezhou suddenly said, “Lou Yan.”
The voice of the silver-haired man was hoarse, unpleasant, and he seemed to laugh inexplicably, “Are you disappointed to see that I’m not dead?”
Lou Yan’s breath stagnated for a moment, then he calmed down again and said in an extremely calm tone, “If I were disappointed, I wouldn’t have brought people to the North Pole to save you.”
The silver-haired man slowly turned his head to look at Lou Yan. He was still as handsome as before, with cold features, high nose, and thin lips. But Fu Xuezhou’s eyes were filled with bloodshot veins, as if covered with a layer of frost, exuding a chilly and desolate atmosphere.
The change in his eyes made Lou Yan vaguely alarmed.
Fu Xuezhou’s gaze moved slowly over Lou Yan’s body, from his hair to his shoes, not missing an inch. After staring for three times, he coldly curled his lips and sneered, “Since you decided to kill me, why did you still save me?”
Lou Yan bit his tongue hard, maintaining his calmness and asked, “What did you say to me when the Paradise was about to collapse?”
Fu Xuezhou’s sarcasm deepened, “Do you really not know what I said?”
Lou Yan couldn’t stand Fu Xuezhou’s tone. The tendons on the back of his hand tightened, and he patiently said, “My mental power was contaminated by the Anomaly Lord’s power, leaving a bit of anomaly power in my brain. The words you said to me that night might have been altered by this anomaly power. Fu Xuezhou, you don’t need to mock me like this. I didn’t make a mistake. From my perspective, killing you was the right choice I made. I just want to ask you now, is the phrase ‘boredom will destroy the world’ really your original words? What did you say to me that night?”
Fu Xuezhou slowly tightened his hand under the blanket. He looked down at the quilt, his brows and eyes shadowed, and his breath slow. “Killing me… was the right choice?”
Lou Yan turned his head, “…The fires that you burned the world to ashes with also burned me.”
The silver-haired man seemed to be frozen in place, motionless. After a while, he suddenly laughed twice, then quickly stopped laughing and said in an extremely indifferent tone, “I didn’t say that if I’m bored, I will destroy the world.”
“Then what did you say?” Lou Yan asked.
“When I was about to die,” Fu Xuezhou repeated the last sentence he said that night, “The Anomaly Lord is the strongest anomaly in this world. In order to kill it, there were 291 reincarnations of myself. But now it’s dead, and the days ahead will be very mundane. When I found out before my death that there were new anomalies appearing in this world, it meant that I had killed the wrong anomaly. Instead of letting this world be occupied by anomalies after my death, it’s better to let it perish with me.”
Fu Xuezhou didn’t bother to lie about such matters, and Lou Yan was confident about this. Hearing Fu Xuezhou’s original words, Lou Yan’s jaw tightened. He felt relieved, but also felt angry and disgusted with the cunning of the Anomaly Lord.
But what made Lou Yan even more concerned was the arrogance and indifference that couldn’t be concealed in Fu Xuezhou’s words.
Although Fu Xuezhou wouldn’t destroy the world out of boredom, he obviously had plans to destroy the world, but only based on the situation of anomalies at the time of his death. He arrogantly decided the fate of this world on his own and gave himself a deadline.
The 291 reincarnations had already made Fu Xuezhou detached from the world, no longer resembling a human being. The thoughts and emotions of other people in this world could not influence Fu Xuezhou’s decisions.
This statement was better than “destroying the world out of boredom,” but it still didn’t make much difference.
Fu Xuezhou looked at Lou Yan’s changing expression with contempt and mocked, “What, don’t believe me? Thinking of killing me again?”
“Do you regret saving me?” Fu Xuezhou sneered, his pitch-black eyes sharp like needles. “After hearing my words, you should feel even more convinced that killing me was the right choice. The North Pole is still close, you’d better turn back now and take me to the extreme cold h*ll. So that…”
A moment of fierce hostility flashed in Fu Xuezhou’s eyes, and with a hint of bloodthirst, he said, “So that I won’t really destroy the world out of boredom.”
Lou Yan felt uncomfortable with the sarcasm and ridicule. His face turned cold, and he turned to leave.
As he reached for the door handle, Fu Xuezhou abruptly called out to him.
“Lou Yan.”
Fu Xuezhou fell silent for a moment, then asked in a low, hoarse voice, “Did you… ever love me?”
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