PMMB Volume 2 Chapter 18

Volume 2 Chapter 18 Confession 


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It is during times of danger when the brain becomes muddled. Unexpectedly, while they had tried to get away, they had neglected changing directions. 

Leaning against a tree, Shao Qing unceasingly gasped for air. When it was finally safe, it was then that she discovered Yan Qiyue’s body was covered in a layer of cold sweat. Reaching out her hand, she helped him wipe his forehead. While she was wiping, her hand froze for a moment: “How are we going to get out?”

In any case, she didn’t recognize the road at all. Even if she wasn’t a person with a poor sense of direction usually, in this jungle, she had basically turned into one. Trying to figure out north from south and east from the west was impossible, but she could probably still figure it out. After all, it didn’t matter which direction you went. Sooner or later you should be able to leave the jungle. The only thing is where you ended up once you left the jungle couldn’t be stated for certain.

Yan Qiyue bit his nails. “I remember a long time ago in a book I read that if you cut a tree and see the growth rings, you would be capable of determining north and south.”

“The book even said that looking at the spread of the tree leaves could also tell you.” Shao Qing lifted her head up with a blank face and stared at the densely packed tree leaves. Don’t even mention trying to point out north and south, even sunlight couldn’t get through.

“That….” Yan Qiyue looked all around then finally said: “Let’s go the opposite direction of the army ants.” No matter what, they should first dodge the mad ants before making any further decisions.

Shao Qing nodded her head then the two began travelling the opposite direction of the army ants. Although they were by themselves, they weren’t worried. Shao Qing and Yan Qiyue weren’t weak. In regards to safety, as long as they didn’t get surrounded by army ants there shouldn’t be anything too dangerous.

Shao Qing’s space also had quite a bit of food. She even had utensils and seasoning. So even though there were only the two, they could unhurriedly travel, unrestrained.

The two people tried their best travelling alongside the river and with water source there was fish available. This simple life went by pretty well, but Yan Qiyue was not in the slightest bit happy. 

In his whole twenty years of life, this was his first real “life” experience. It was like eating again after a period of fasting. Once it has started it couldn’t be stopped easily. Especially with his beloved person right by his side and no one to hinder him as well, Yan Qiyue began to get a bit restless.

Yet, Shao Qing didn’t bang bang bang with him! The most that has happened is him grinding against her and being pressed to the ground and whipped with a lash. But right when it was really beginning, it would just finish.

How could Yan Qiyue just bear it? He felt extremely aggrieved. All this time he liked Shao Qing, he even loved Shao Qing. Always sticking on to her, but it was all his own wishful thinking.

This is because Shao Qing had never said that she liked him and has also never promised him anything. This was basically all one-sided. Even the previous time, it was only because Shao Qing had been poisoned thus something more intimate had developed.

In reality, Shao Qing had never acknowledged their relationship… 

Yan Qiyue was really downcast. Indeed, that night Shao Qing was very gentle towards him. So gentle that every time he would think about it, his face couldn’t help but heat up. Yet, Shao Qing was cold on the outside warm on the inside person. Even if it was another person, she would probably be just as gentle.

Thus, since that night, Shao Qing had not been willing to develop any more intimate relationship. With that thought, even if he called her dear or baby, even if others called her his wife, she would still be indifferent without admitting it.

Or perhaps, Shao Qing might leave when she is all healed. This is probably why when he said he will find a method to revert her to normal she simply smiled indifferently and didn’t reply.

Thinking and thinking, Yan Qiyue became even more upset. He truly believed that he had nothing that could hold her back. Money or authority didn’t help because Shao Qing didn’t pay attention to those at all. Power? Shao Qing was probably way stronger than he was. His body…. Ah, his desire didn’t mean Shao Qing wanted it too.

Speaking of these past days, Shao Qing is a zombie. She basically had none of those necessities. It was only him harassing her and Shao Qing accompanying him or being mindful of him.

“What are you thinking about?” Shao Qing had just created a fire and couldn’t help but shoot a glance towards Yan Qiyue. His expressions just now were ever-changing and can be said to be ‘complex’. In one moment he would be downcast, in one moment he would look like he was about to cry, and then in the next, he would have the sweetest smile.

Shao Qing really wanted to go over and touch his forehead to see if his temperature was alright.

Yan Qiyue coughed lightly but didn’t speak what was on his mind. He simply said: “I’m just thinking when the two of us will be able to leave this place.”

Shao Qing calculated it for a moment. Once they returned back to the base, her injuries should be basically all healed up and it would be time for her to go search for Er Dai.

Seeing that the time of departure was near, Shao Qing couldn’t help but tell Yan Qiyue: “I just found a non-poisonous mushroom to make you soup. You need to make sure to develop a better habit of drinking some soup when you eat dinner. This would be better for your stomach. In the future, when you are doing any research, make sure to set an alarm. Don’t always skip breakfast and lunch or else you’ll give yourself stomach pains.

Bringing himself over, he leaned against Shao Qing. “In the future whenever you call me, no matter how important the experiment is, I will just throw it to the side. Moreover, won’t you always be making soup for me…”

Shao Qing rubbed Yan Qiyue’s soft hair and quietly replied: “But, sooner or later I will have to leave…”

“Don’t say it….” Yan Qiyue hurriedly interrupted her. He quickly shut his eyes. He didn’t want to bring it up but why did Shao Qing have to bring it up.

Why was she determined to ruin his delusion? Even in a dream…. she won’t even let him have it.

“Even if I don’t speak about it, I still have to leave. Shao Qing calmly said. “Right now my body is nearly all healed up. Once I send you back to the base, then I am going to go search for my family.”

Yan Qiyue curled up into a ball against Shao Qing, looking very sad. Even though he was lanky, his entire body very thin, he was still a man. Shrinking into a ball and slightly shuddering, Shao Qing couldn’t help but seize him by the arms and lightly say: “I want to thank you for these past days. If there’s an opportunity, I will definitely come to see you.”

Yan Qiyue didn’t say anything. He just continued to shudder. It was as if he went back to that day he had personally murdered his stepfather. Everyone could see how pitiful he looked in front of the police, but no one could see that when everyone was gone, he had curled himself into a ball and was shaking within his blanket the entire night.

And the current him now was even more desperate than that time. 

How could this person be so cruel? How could she just give up like this? Just say she doesn’t want it and throw it away. Yes, it’s because she doesn’t care. That’s why she could so casually throw him away like it just didn’t matter.

Feeling something wasn’t right, she pushed aside the bangs in front of his face to reveal his delicates brows and eyes. In front of her, Yan Qiyue had always been a rather delicate and obedient person. So much that after the rather intense affairs, he appeared even more frail and sexual.

But he had never looked like this. Right now he gave off the feeling that if Shao Qing just gave him the slightest touch, he would shatter into pieces.


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